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Should I pursue a career in music?

Time again for another decision spread. I wish I could find some decent five-card spreads that weren’t decision spreads, but alas. This time I’ll be exploring new career options and asking the cards: “Should I pursue a career in music?” The layout here is a little different but the positions are the same, with the left path being “yes” and the right path being “no.”

The center card representing me, or my current situation, is the Ten of Cups. Put simply, this card means “joy.” I’m looking for something that will make me happy, but also allow me to share that joy with others.

Underlying this, the shadow card here is the Ace of Swords. This says that I want something that is true, not ephemeral or superficial. I don’t want the temporary feeling of happiness as much as I want that deep and pervading sense of peace that comes from true contentment.

Pulling me toward a musical fate is Justice. The meaning here is pretty straightforward; to weight every aspect of the decision and judge it. My concern is for doing what’s right for me. The outcome of this process will be the Lovers; to do what I love and to love what I do.

Pulling me away from this is the Five of Pentacles, usually symbolizing money or health problems, pointing toward my desire for a stable income. It could also be an indicator of a subtle fear of rejection, or lack of faith in my own abilities. The outcome of this process is the Fool. Now rarely does this card actually mean foolishness as we think of it, but considering the Five this may be one of those times. If not, it could represent throwing myself to the wind and seeing where luck takes me; not a bad description of the typical job application process.

Looking at all the cards together, basically it seems that I can either make a smart decision or give in to my worries about money.  Maybe this is a sign I need to start doing something with music.

[This reading was done on 10/26/13 at 9:18pm EST]

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What challenges do I need to overcome?

Extending the theme from the last reading, I decided to use the same spread layout to answer a different question: “What long-term challenges will I need to overcome?” In this case, the inner triad represents the three challenges while the outer triad represents the solutions I will need to implement, and the shadow card in the center illustrates the premise of the reading, or how all of these challenges are connected.

First we have the Nine of Cups, which has the idea of granting wishes or finding satisfaction. This would seem to say that one of my recurring problems will be finding something fulfilling that I can take joy in, that will bring me closer to realizing my goals, rather than send me further away and cause me to put my own desires on a shelf.

The way for me to do this is illustrated by the Eight of Swords. This is an intriguing, and confusing, card to pull here because it has to do with restrictions and perhaps waiting to be rescued. The message here might be that there’s no point waiting for the perfect solution. I’m not going to find my dream job by waiting for it to come to me; I have to be the one to initiate. Picking a direction and moving forward is going to serve me better here.

Next we have the Eight of Cups, which has the idea of realizing that a cycle is ending, lacking energy or motivation, or focusing on your spiritual side. This may be saying that one of the major challenges I will face will be disengaging and moving on from things that are draining to me. There are several things in my life this could apply to, and I’m already in the process of doing this in some cases.

The Page of Wands says that I will be best served in this endeavor by focusing on renewing my creative energy and going in a new direction. The message seems to be that I should follow my passion instead of trying to force myself to spend creative energy on things I’m not as enthusiastic of out of obligation.

Finally we have the Sun, which is very interesting considering that in my last reading it was also one of my long-term goals. This may imply that my ideals are limiting me in some way. Going back to the Nine of Cups, it would appear that in setting such lofty goals, I’ve lost sight of the mundane.

The Ten of Wands suggests and interesting way to deal with this conundrum. Interpreted in a positive way, it speaks of pushing through with determination and pushing against the current. Basically it means I shouldn’t shy away from the hard work that needs to be done, even if it is unpleasant or doesn’t seem to bring me closer to my ideals.

The Five of Cups links these issues together, and finally we have a negative card that makes sense in the position it’s drawn. This card speaks of loss and regret, and letting go of things that you wanted to hold onto, but no longer are able to. This is reflected in the other cards which speak of leaving behind attachments to things no longer serving me, but that I still feel obligated to try to find a way to make work. In a word: it’s not.

Taken together, I get the sense that now may be the time to start pushing myself again, if I can manage to shrug off the things that are holding me back, emotionally and creatively. I need to start making progress, in whatever form it may take, even if it means working a little overtime.

[This reading was done on 10/25/13 at 12:10am EST]

Spell 1a

The air was strangely warm all day and into the night. Odd for such a cold October, even more so on Hallows’ Eve. I have many memories as a child retreating into the warmth of a running vehicle after braving the dark streets which seemed to teem with a chilly energy. A few days ago it felt like early winter, and now it feels like early spring.

As is my custom, I conduct the ancient rite of starting something new while ignoring the project I’m supposed to be working on. I didn’t expect to cast a spell tonight. I only realized today that I finally had everything I needed, more or less. Some substitutions had to be made for lack of proper tools.

The idea was to use new one-dollar bills for this money spell, but those are harder to find than I thought. Completely by coincidence, however, I came into possession of five pennies minted in this year. A certain bestselling author might raise an eyebrow in disfavor, but I’d like to think that he would be proud of me for giving some value to this useless and outmoded currency.

I wanted to use new ones that hadn’t been handled very much, so as to cut down on ambient residual energy. You may prefer a different approach in using much older currency that has built up a history, and therefore an energy, of its own. There are benefits and drawbacks to either approach that really comes down to your own style and aptitude. As a beginner, I thought it best to not muddy the proverbial waters.

As far as casting spells goes, few dates are as auspicious. Perhaps it was providence, or fate, but I felt compelled. This was a long time coming. I’ve been planning for it almost as long as I’ve been learning tarot. Preparation took longer than I thought, pushing the actual casting well past midnight; the tablecloth had to be washed, incense had to be burned, candles had to be cut down. Finally, though, everything was ready.

Spell 1bThe Tools

As a money spell, the most obvious component is, well, money. Specifically, in this case, pennies minted in 2013. I also used five tumbled gemstones and a rough crystal point as a makeshift athame. I purified all of them in salt water, within my “chalice,” for around thirty minutes.

Spell 1cThe Setup

In the very center I laid a pentagram using the copper coins. Lacking a proper altar cloth, my imagination had to suffice. Atop each coin I placed a gem; champaign-aura quartz for Fire, aqua-aura quartz for Water, angel-aura quartz for Air, prasiolite for Earth, and a celestite chip for Spirit.

Outside the pentagram, four colored candles stand sentinel. Their fire alone lights the dark room in this dark house. Beyond them lie the other symbolic instruments; a chalice sits half filled with pure water. A broken amethyst pendulum is encircled by its metal chain. Sandalwood incense burns within its ornate black soapstone holder.

The stage at last set, there is one last step before the casting begins. I meditate. I visualize the energy flowing into me, the energy of the elements, and the pale strand that connects me to the Divine and the Earth. All are made one in my mind. Taking up the crystal point, I go through the motions of the spell, solidifying it in my mind. I don’t count the minutes, I simply know when I’m ready.

Standing, I trace the pentagram with my crystal athame, starting and ending with the top of the star, the celestite piece. I hold it there for many moments, building up the energy inside of me. The words press against my lips like a river pressing against a newly formed dam; it is this hesitance to speak them that makes me know they will have significance. I feel the vulnerability that comes from knowing you’re being listened to. It is familiar. And so, crystal pointed unto Spirit, I begin the incantation.

Let prosperity cover me
Let my efforts not be in vain
Let this money return to me multiplied
And it harm none

Thus spoken, I thrust the athame toward the heart of the pentagram, binding the energy to the coins and sealing the spell. It is done. I lay the crystal point down. The hours of preparation culminated in a simple gesture, now over. Finished, I blow out the candles, one by one.

I sit in darkness. It seems too simple, I reflect. Only time will tell if it even worked. I don’t go down that road though; no use doubting myself. All the minor aches of my body that had been pushed out of my consciousness during the ritual begin returning, slowly, like strays tentatively and pitifully begging for attention and food, nosing their way into the house as you try to slip through the door.

I become acutely aware of the leaves being rustled by the wind outside, reminded of my vulnerability as I let the darkness envelop me. I do not fear the dark, but I know that stranger things lurk there. Especially on this night. Most assuredly on this night.

I will spend these pennies. I will release them into the world, bound with my intent, over the course of the next month. In doing so I make a tangible gesture, no longer a thought or a wish, that pushes my will into the world. As they trace paths unknown to me they will pass on the energy once imbued, and that energy will in turn open doors for me that I could not have anticipated. Everything must return from whence it came. The circle will close; only to begin again.

This was my first spell, but it will not be my last.

Spell 1d icon

Well, it had to happen eventually.

Last week, after 31 consecutive days of posting tarot readings, I finally missed a day. Not for any particular reason, I just didn’t manage to get ready in time. I suppose that makes the project a failure, by the original rules, but I still plan on doing 365 total readings.

However, I did decide to take a week off from posting, which is why I haven’t been active lately. Writing actually does take a lot out of me (well, everything does, really) so even if I don’t really accomplish anything else in a day it’s still a pretty large investment of my energy.

I’m still doing readings every day, and I still have all the pictures of them for days I missed, and one day this week I will probably get all caught up, but right now I need to focus on things like finding a job and managing to get more than two consecutive hours of sleep a night.

I hate to be “that guy” to put this project on the dreaded indefinite hiatus, but I can only play the hand I’m dealt. Hopefully you understand.

What long-term goals do I need to set?

 

In honor of completing one full month of daily tarot readings, I decided to trot out a new spread I adapted based on the simple three-card Body-Mind-Spirit spread. The question I asked was “What long-term goals do I need to set for myself?” The inner triad represents the three goals for my body, mind, and spirit, and the outer triad represents how I can best accomplish these goals, while the shadow card rests in the center as the connecting card.

For the Body goal we have the Five of Cups and the Seven of Pentacles. The Five has connotations of loss or bereavement, an odd card to place here. It could mean that I should be more intentional about appreciating what I have, but if we take it in the context of what grieving does for us, it could be saying that I need to heal and move on. The Seven suggests that the way to do this is to move in a new direction, which will be more rewarding. Basically, I need to take stock of my situation because what I’m doing and the way I’m dealing with things isn’t working out so well, and there’s a much better way within my grasp.

For the Mind goal we have Temperance and the Star. In this context Temperance calls to mind the fusion of new and different ideas into a new ideology or paradigm. It could also be that I need to avoid excessively indulging in things that make me feel good (i.e. playing too much Pokemon) and avoid leaning toward extremes. The Star says that the way to do this is to stay inspired. Tranquility is key. I need to find faith in what I’m doing, and have faith that everything will work out.

For the Spirit goal we have the Sun and the Queen of Swords. The Sun represents enlightenment (in every sense of the word) and can also have undercurrents of experiencing vitality and greatness. This card represents my ultimate spiritual ideal, to shine forth brilliantly in power and truth. The Queen of Swords suggests an interesting path to attainment, though. It could be that I should seek someone like myself, but further down the path, who can model these attributes for me. Alternately, it could be saying that experience is the best teacher, and that being honest with myself and being ale to laugh at myself as I seek out new experiences will serve me the most in my spiritual quest.

Underlying it all is the Moon, which says that the theme linking all these goals should be using my imagination and exploring my subconscious. Overcoming the fear of the unknown will be my biggest obstacle. However, the Sun and the Star will help me shine a light to dispel all illusions.

[This reading was done on 10/23/13 at 8:18pm EST]

What will bring me luck this week?

Today, October 22nd, marks the one-month anniversary of the Tarot Every Day project. I finally did it, a whole month of daily tarot readings…!…and I’ve been too busy to celebrate. Maybe tomorrow I will do something special, but today we’re going with our standard 3-ish card spread and asking “What will bring me luck this week?” The shadow card in the middle represents the thing that will bring me luck, and the three surrounding cards represent the things that will help me bring it about.

In the center is the Hanged Man. This card can represent giving up control, switching priorities, or even sacrifice. It is a somewhat paradoxical card in that it embodies overcoming by doing nothing. It is the immovable object which weathers and absorbs the unstoppable force. This card could be telling me that I need to be the calm center in the midst of the storm, because emotions WILL be running high, but getting caught up in it is only going to make things worse for everyone.

The first card that will help me do this is the Emperor. In the context of the Hanged Man, this card’s message is simple: control yourself. Rather than asserting my own authority (although there may be moments when that is needed) I should allow myself to submit to authority figures in order to make things go more smoothly.

The second card that will help me is the Wheel of Fortune. Usually signifying a change in luck, really it can represent any kind of major shift for better or for worse. This is somewhat appropriate since I’ll be going to my cousin’s wedding this weekend. This card is pretty straightforward; I should do whatever I can to help set up/clean up wherever I see the need. This isn’t the time to sit back and blend into the scenery.

Finally we come to the Hermit. This card hasn’t shown up for a while, even though it’s supposedly my “life path” card (you can find out what yours is here). This card has connotations of withdrawal and introspection; curious because the other cards seem to indicate getting involved and putting my own desires on a shelf. So what does this card mean? Probably: keep your opinions to yourself. No one cares about or needs to know what I’m thinking. In fact it might be best to avoid conversation altogether and keep myself busy with whatever is at hand that anyone needs help with.

Well, that was easy. Interpreting the cards in this triad sort of way is a lot easier than simply throwing the cards down and trying to decipher them cold. Looking at the elements represented here, we have four Major Arcana vying for dominance (Actually, I just noticed that this reading is entirely Major Arcana. Odd.), but not only that, all four elements are present. I’m almost shocked. Could this mean that I need to do ALL THE THINGS? Maybe. Considering I will be around a lot of people, brushing up on my shielding couldn’t hurt. There are four days left before the wedding (I think) so maybe I will just pick a different psychic technique to practice each day.

[This reading was done on 10/22/13 at 11:59pm EST]

What do I need to focus on this week?

 

Going a bit non-positional again today, as we begin the week. However, I decided to impose a bit of structure on the spread and interpret the shadow card as the “premise” of the reading, and the other three cards as the things that will help me deal with this situation, with the question being “What do I need to focus on this week?”

The Ace of Pentacles tells me that my focus should be primarily material. There’s a definite need for practicality, which could point to a need to take care of my body, or to buckle down and get things done. This is fairly appropriate because I have a busy week ahead, so maybe the rest of the reading will tell me how to get through it.

The Sun tells me to harness my natural vitality (ha) and become a force to be reckoned with. I need to stride with confidence – but also be aware of my limits. That said, it’s not going to hurt to aim high here. I should give every task my best shot.

The Two of Pentacles tells me to not stretch myself too thin. I need to be flexible and not take on more than I can handle. However, I still need to make sure all my bases are covered; especially the ones that I’ll regret neglecting later. Throughout all I need to keep my spirits up and not forget about having fun.

The Knight of Swords tells me to be myself. Although, it wouldn’t hurt to be a less intense version of myself. There may be moments when I need to take control of a situation, and that might require being a little assertive. However, if I can rein in the sarcasm it will help things go more smoothly.

 

Well that was a lot easier than I thought it was going to be when I first looked at this spread. I might do this for all my “non-positional” readings from now on, unless another pattern presents itself. Looking at the elements represented here, Fire obviously wins as the only Major Arcana’s element, so that means I’ll be channeling Fire this week.

 

[This reading was done on 10/21/13 at 11:30pm EST]

Who am I?

 

Laying here under my electric blanket, my only shield against the cold, harsh realities of life, I feel overwhelmed with this philosophical feeling. In my imagination, the mysteries of the universe open up to me, and I gaze out at creation in awe and wonder. The stars whisper to me their secrets as I ride across the galaxies on a burning comet, leaving a vapor trail of sparkling dream dust. As I skirt the event horizon of an ancient black hole, I can only stare into the abyss and ask, “Who am I?”

Just kidding, I totally stole the idea for today’s spread from this girl. Trying to top the Dragon and Triforce spreads with last week’s Pokémon spread left me feeling tapped out all week, so I’m scaling it waaaay back and doing a simple “Who am I?” spread — but with a twist! For each point in the star I drew the shadow card as well, from the bottom of each pile, which I chose to interpret as reverse cards for no reason in particular. I normally don’t use reversals so this will be good practice for me.

The first step in doing this spread is to separate your deck into the Major Arcana, the court cards, and each individual suit, giving you six piles total. I chose to shuffle all of these piles individually after separating them out (not that they were in order anyway). Next, draw a court card and place it in the center – this is you. Then you want to draw a Major Arcana for the top point of the star, and going either clockwise or counterclockwise, lay down a card from each of the four suits.

This is you – Knight of Swords. No real surprise here. Blunt, opinionated, and analytical, sarcasm is like a second language. I can be brutally honest, but I choose my words carefully. I also have a medical condition called Stupidity Intolerance Disorder. If I think for a moment you indulge in habitual willful ignorance, I won’t hesitate to cut you out of my life.

What embodies you – Temperance. This card suggests a pulling together of disparate elements in order to form a cohesive whole. It also has connotations of balance and finding the middle road. This is pretty much the approach I take to everything. I don’t so much have role models as much as role…behaviors. When I see someone do something in a way that I like, I emulate that behavior; even if that person doing it isn’t someone I really care for at all. It’s how I approach spirituality as well, informing myself about different belief systems and seeing what resonates with truth. Whenever I want to learn to do something new, I try to learn all the best techniques for it and use them in concert, rather than taking on one whole discipline and following it strictly.

What grounds you – Two of Pentacles. In the same style as Temperance, this card is typically interpreted to be about balance, although it doesn’t quite carry the same weight. This seems to say that I’m most grounded when I go with the flow and adapt quickly, forcing myself not to settle and get into a rut. This constant balancing act keeps me honest with myself, because I learn very quickly what I need to keep hold of and what I need to let go of.

What affect you – Nine of Cups. This card can symbolize dreams coming true, getting desired results, and experiencing sensual pleasure. This is, uh, probably a little more accurate than I’d like to admit. My “love language” is definitely physical touch, and I do spend a lot of time daydreaming. There’s no greater feeling than a project coming together in JUST the way you imagined it, or even better than you’d hoped. Y’know, other than sex I guess.

What inflames you – Three of Wands. There’s an old saying – it’s not the destination that’s important, it’s the journey. Well, that’s bullshit. However, there are few things as exciting to me as exploring the unknown and blazing a trail (maybe literally) through the wilderness, using all my wisdom and expertise to survive what challenges may come. I don’t go unprepared though; I take a long time in planning and getting myself ready so that when the time comes to take the leap, there’s nothing holding me back.

What elevates you – Ace of Swords. Been a while since this one came up for me. This card is about primary mental force and the singular search for truth. I’m at my most spiritual when putting the pieces together (Temperance) that allow me to see clearly the essence of a person, teaching, or situation. I bring all my knowledge and experience to bear in order to cut through illusions.

This paints a pretty nice picture of who I am – but every hero has his shadow, as they say. Now that we’ve completed the five-pointed Star, it’s time to take a look at the Shadow Star. This set of inverted cards displays my weaknesses, or the person that I could become if I gave into my darker desires that bring out the worst in me.

 

 

Who amn't I?

 

This is you – King of Pentacles Reversed. Normally this card is all about generosity and reliability, but as its position illustrates, I have the potential to be greedy and obsessive, letting money slip through my fingers as I ineffectually try to throw it at my problems. This takes being stubborn to a whole new level of obstinance. It’s my way or the highway, and no I won’t give you a quarter to call someone who cares.

What embodies you – Strength Reversed. Put simply, the opposite of Strength is Weakness. It depicts a nature of constant worry and self-doubt, as resources are frittered away on temporary pleasures. It also implies a lack of discipline, allowing distractions to take up the time and energy that would be better spent on trying to accomplish my goals.

What unbalances you – Queen of Pentacles Reversed. This card could perhaps show being attached to a woman who is just as petty, obsessive, and insecure as the Reversed King who is childishly obsessed over her. They feed off of each other’s insecurities in a cycle of negativity. It could also point toward a fixation on an “ideal match” and holding vastly unattainable standards.

What isolates you – Ace of Cups Reversed. This points to a lack of empathy that comes from being self-absorbed and repressive. As such, whenever I talk I want to talk about me, and I tend to gush out all the repressed emotions about the perceived trials and tribulations of my life. Truth be told, his rollercoaster ride of emotions is mainly self-induced.

What frustrates you – Eight of Wands Reversed. Delays, delays, delays. Impatience is the mother of all frustration. I can’t wait for things to line up or obstacles to clear out – so I jump in and and do it anyway. This inevitably leads to screwing things up and wasting time (and probably money) cleaning up the mess. Having so many ideas bouncing around in my head like hailstones makes me impulsive and unfocused, so I start doing one thing and by the end I have twenty things to finish.

What depresses you – Six of Swords Reversed. Normally a card of leaving the past behind and starting anew, reversed it indicates an inability to deal with emotional baggage that is holding you back. This typifies the person who lives in the past, constantly beats himself up over past mistakes, and resists necessary transition. It could also imply holding onto grudges, and refusing to forgive people for supposedly “unforgivable” deeds.

 

Ah, the journey of self-discovery comes to a close. That wraps up this reading, I suppose. Be sure to go to the Enchanted Learner‘s blog and give her some love. Like me, she’s just beginning her tarot journey – kind of.

 

[This reading was done on 10/20/13 at 11:23pm EST]

 

What are the cycles in my life I need to be aware of?

 

In the last reading I used the cards to take a look at my own personal energy to see what kind of influences were at work around me. This time I’m taking the larger view, but keeping with the same theme, and asking “What patterns in my life do I need to be aware of?”

In the center is the Sun, the most important or prominent pattern in my life at my present moment. It suggests confidence and understanding, and can also be a symbol for enlightenment, highlighting my search for truth. In contrast to the Hermit, who withdraws to seek the truth within, the Sun shines a light forth to find where that truth is reflected in the world. This card also appeared at the center of the last reading’s spread.

Crossing the Sun is the Seven of Wands. This can sometimes point to being aggressive or having a forceful personality, but it can also be about having conviction and relentlessly pursuing what you want. Confidence and conviction often go hand in hand, so when one falters the other is brought low as well. Taking the Sun and the Seven in tandem, it speaks of “rising above” challenges and challengers.

To the left is the Five of Pentacles. This indicates a pattern of “not having enough,” not being emotionally or spiritually fulfilled or simply not having your physical needs met. There certainly seems to be a cycle of falling short (be it of money, energy, or tact) just when I’m starting to get on top of things.

To the right is the Emperor. This illustrates a new cycle of control and dominance that is just beginning, or will soon begin. It could be about bringing some new structure into my life or implying that I will take on some sort of leadership role which will characterize a new period in my life.

Above is the Tower. This typifies my conscious desire to tear down old ways of thinking in order to make room for new ones. It could also be about how I see it as my mission in life to help people achieve a change of perspective. In the negative sense, it could also describe some crisis that I am still consciously dealing with and working through which takes up a lot of my resources.

Below is Judgment. Typically linked with the idea of forgiveness, this card illuminates my subconscious desire to forgive — and forget. Sometimes the forgetting comes first though, so there could be things in my past that I need to forgive in order to move on. However, it can also point toward hearing a call or awakening to new possibilities, like how I’ve been trying to “awaken” my subconscious and be more in tune with it.

Atop the staff is the Knight of Pentacles. This is where I am focusing my attention, where by actions informed by my beliefs are taking me. I’ve certainly been trying to be hardworking and thorough (in terms of this blog), but I also have a stubborn and cautious streak. If you view it as patterns I’m trying to create, it could speak to forming new habits, like with the way I’m picking up meditation again.

Next on the staff is the Six of Wands. This is a pattern I see in the world that I would like to be a part of. As a card of triumph and acclaim, this could be representing my desire to surround myself with successful or talented people. In the negative sense, it could point to feeling like everyone else has “made it” in a sense, and I’m feeling left out.

The penultimate staff card is the Wheel of Fortune. Now this is an interesting card to draw here, as it represents a pattern in my life that I really need to become aware of, but haven’t quite glimpsed yet. It could be that I don’t really see how my luck is changing, or that I don’t realize what a turning point in my life I’m at. While I have been experiencing change, maybe I don’t yet understand how deep that change really goes.

Finally we reach the final pattern, the pattern that all other patters are, um..patterning. It’s the “outcome” card, so it represents a pattern that hasn’t formed yet, but will form if none of the other patterns are changed. This pattern is characterized by the Eight of Wands. This could be that there will be a time of great activity in my future. It could also be a time of “wrapping up” things I’ve been working on and showcasing them to the world. Really it signifies making progress.

So there we have it. A somewhat comprehensive overview of the patterns in my life. Fairly positive overall, but a few things I could work on improving.

[This spread was done on 10/19/13 at 10:28pm EST]

What is the energy surrounding me?

I’ve been having trouble getting a handle on my readings lately, mainly, I think, because I’m not really ready to take on non-positional spreads yet. So today I figured I’d take a step back and get some perspective. The question I asked this time was “What is the energy surrounding me?”

This spread is kind of a bastardization of several five-card spreads I found, since I couldn’t find just one that fit what I wanted. The graphic below will tell you how I laid the cards down, and what they mean. (Please forgive my poor photoshop skills)

energyspread

The center position represents the energy that you, yourself, emanate simply by existing. If you choose, you can take it to mean the nature of your highest self. In my case, it is the Sun. This is a card of life-giving energy, radiating vitality, freedom, and self-expression. This seems to say that my energy necessarily seeks ways to bring “life and light” into the world by connecting to or inspiring others. Considering my background, I’d say this is a highly appropriate card to draw here.

The Hierophant represents the energy in my aura that is in harmony with my center card. It suggests that my personal energy is strengthened when I am acting on strongly-held beliefs, which I have come to hold after much seeking of truth. It also seems to say that my energy seeks to express itself within groups I identify with.

The Two of Wands represents the energy in my aura that causes dissonance with my center card. This is very telling, as I’ve always had a problem with indecision. While I can often make procrastination work in my favor, it usually takes me a really long time to pick a direction and move, as I try to weigh my options. Sometimes I’m glad I waited, other times I’m really not.

The Empress represents the energy that is seeking to express itself in my aura. It is a nurturing energy that works to manifest abundance. It also has a touch of idealism. It is a primary creative force of expression, flowing directly out of the identity of the higher self. This card could suggest that I should open myself up to the power of unconditional love.

The Queen of Swords represents the energy that is present in my aura, but dormant. You can choose to interpret this as the “missing piece” if you wish. This card could be telling me two things. First, that I’m missing the kind of person that embodies the Queen of Swords in my life. Second, that I’m neglecting those qualities within me that the Queen of Swords personifies. It could also mean both. It’s possible I’m repressing some emotions, which is having a negative effect on me. It could also be a sign that I don’t know what I really want at this stage in my life, and I’m somewhat at a loss for direction.

If you want to you can go into the half-steps (i.e. Active-Positive, Active-Negative, Passive-Negative, etc.) to give yourself a sort of personal energy graph. I won’t do that here, for the sake of getting this post up before midnight.

 

I hope you get some use out of this spread, should you choose to use it.

[This spread was done on 10/18/13 at 9:10pm]